The Muted Tones

Test-running the new color scheme; I like the fleshiness of the tone. Not bad for the free Blogger, I'm thinking.

Are you of one religious mind? Is it possible to be thoughtfully certain of all things religious? It seems to me that those of solid faith are solid precisely because they abandon certainty. A nice feeling, I'll bet.

I realize that I've stopped writing what I am really thinking or feeling. Instead, I've tried hard to craft something Worthwhile the past several months or year. I don't see how trying to figure stuff out about myself, life, and their interaction is exactly publishable. And I do want to put out something that has hopes of connecting with another mind. I have books and Word docs filled with conversations to my "future people" as I think of them, the reader that gets it, but how to give those mobility, I'm just not sure. So I've been working on fiction, and on personal essays, but realize that my trying to go a certain direction is affecting the quality. Drat. My gut tells me to go back with the flow, write what wants to be written, even if the subject matter bores me at this point, and let the form take care of itself down the road. Because that's the direction, and those are the topics, that still sock me in the gut, make my stomach hurt, make me feel. And that's where the writing happens.